I don’t know how to say what I want to say. Sometimes it is just so easy to give up, but I feel like that’s the cowards way out. I want to fight and continue! Just sometimes you gotta let go to keep going. Thoughts and feelings are so complex, maybe that’s what makes us human, complexity. I wish I had a complete brain dump right now and could write every single thing I am feeling, but do you that feeling you get sometimes, like you know how you feel but you can’t really explain it? Yeah. That’s how I feel right now. Wish I could share with you but sometimes I don’t know how and the best remedy is silence and company. And at this moment good reads, is that company.